i just saw someone tag a status about themselves as #jesus’wifey
Let someone love you just the way you are – as flawed as you might be, as unattractive as you sometimes feel, and as unaccomplished as you think you are. To believe that you must hide all the parts of you that are broken, out of fear that someone else is incapable of loving what is less than perfect, is to believe that sunlight is incapable of entering a broken window and illuminating a dark room.
My heart is missing some important people today. People that I feel were unfairly ripped out of my life. Where someone else’s decisions changed what my relationships looked like.
Great things have been happening. I can’t even share it with them. I can’t pick up the phone and say “guess what?!” God has been doing great things but I often am reminded of the wound that I feel like hasn’t healed yet.
I hate that I’m not able to celebrate life with them. I hate that this has taken away years worth of friendship.
But I know that God is good. I know that He is the healer of the broken hearted. I just miss them, Lord. Some days it’s just hard.
I am just learning what it really looks like to cling to God when you feel like everything else is failing around you; including yourself. I’m learning that constantly trying to fix things or worse, ignore things just makes a bigger mess. I’m learning that God wants to take that messiness an make something beautiful out of it. I’m learning that restoration and healing comes with surrender to what His will is for you. It’s sometimes painful and confusing, and you might want to take a few steps back. But He’s your father, waiting to catch you when you’re ready to jump and trust that He will catch you right I’m His arms. And the funny thing is.. The learning never ends.. but neither does His grace..